Todays blog isn't as happy or as positive, but a very tender subject.

How is it that we can love some one so much and have them seemingly not think to love you at all?

I have studied love and relationships on my own and through books and now in school since I was a young girl. I know about the love languages, the communication patterns, that it rarely is ever because any one person is at fault. I "know" all of this, but some days - like today- my heart doesn't understand. All my heart has to say is that for so long it has been yerning to feel that connection with the person that holds a place in my heart.

Here is the letter I would write to that person

I want you to know that I love you. I have always loved you. I know there have been differences of opinions. There has been more pain then we ever knew or know how to deal with, but we all felt it. We all are dealing with it.

Beyond the pain, I wish I could tell you how much I admire you. How much you have influenced my life. Your zeal for everything you do amazes me. The ability you have to constantly strive to master everything you do in life.

I long to be apart of your life. I long to hear what you think. I want you to know I want you to be happy. The choices we make all lead to our own personal happiness, but I don't think we tell each other enough that we know how the road is different for everyone. I don't want to change your road or tell you which road to take. I want to be there, I want to see the beauty of your road.

How can I tell you that I wish you could be the one that would be reading this blog every week, and that we could share those creative secrets we figure out in our delicious creations.

You could be one of my closest friends. I know I owe you so many I am sorries, and so many thank you's.

To my Brother, I love you. I always will.